i have had a rough start to summer and i don’t know why. the past three days have been the worst days i have had in a while. i bum around the house all day and then feel very lonely. i don’t have enough friends. my boyfriend lives thousands of miles away. it’s rainy and too hot. i want to cry, but i know if i do i will feel like a total wimp. i need something good to happen. i feel like a fat loser. everyone else is going out and doing stuff with their friends, while i sit at home eating cold pizza and watching planet earth reruns. jon and kate are also probably getting a divorce.  what’s wrong with the world? if summer doesn’t pick up soon, i’m gonna go crazy.